Chapter III- Awaken - "How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone," said the great fashion revolutionaries G. Coco Chanel, the words of someone who left a deep trace in the history of fashion responded to me every night when I went away with my thoughts in bed. Life filled with lies and deceptions to be glorified in the eyes of others, and to be accepted by others and fulfill other expectations are our everyday events that we are not aware of, and we do them to "fit in" and live a different life rather than respect. We do not choose when we are born, neither when we die, but the period as long as we live, we choose it constantly every moment while we think, breathe, do ... At the moment when I "chose" that I do not want to be someone or something, the sense of apparent satisfaction of the environment and fulfilled all the demands imposed upon me, I removed the enormous burden of discontent. At first, it was not easy to confess to others everything that I deeply hid and carried in me. I chose people, all those I wanted to be here, I chose the words that I hoped to hear and understand, those who were supposed to hear and understand were still staying here, the rest were a part of a common being. I have opposed many difficult words. I went through condemnation and labeling, it was not easy. However, many nice words, support and acceptance have rescinded all those hard-spoken words. I woke up. I realized who I am, where I am and how much I can throw you away from everything that has kept me from developing as a living being both professionally and spiritually. Now every night when I look in the mirror and lie down I realize how happy I am and in what direction my life goes and I lay with the same feeling of pleasure every night, because I know that I do the right things for myself and others, and I try to make every day I will improve myself and help others in every way they can. Sorry if I was not always there for you. Excuse me, if I was once rude or bad, I said the words that got you sick. Thank you for being here or not. I love you but I will not tell you that, but I will show you with my words and deeds.
